Lately, I’ve been feeling convicted of the fact that I’m neglecting my own heart. It’s so easy to lose sight of the gospel and forget to “feed” your heart with God’s Word when you have so much other stuff going on (work, marriage, pregnancy, weekends, planning, life in general).
I just started reading a book called “A Mom After God’s Own Heart” by Elizabeth George and it’s been so encouraging and convicting, particularly her reminder of the importance of nurturing my heart and filling it with spiritual food on a daily basis – especially as a soon-to-be-mom.
She points out 4 major, serious issues that surface when you don’t regularly dive into God’s Word:
- You start running on empty. Your parenting is empty and evidences of apathy creep into your life. You become dull and devoid of spiritual energy, purpose, motivation, and accomplishment.
- You become heartless. You put yourself and your parenting on auto-pilot. You give in and give up the fight for godly standards and behavior. You fail to make the effort to live out God’s calling to be moms after Him.
- You become worldly. You find yourself preoccupied with the things of this world, enamored by earthly pursuits and rewards. You stop following God’s criteria and His ways, and start walking in the ways of the world.
- You become carnal or unspiritual. You fulfill the lust of the flesh and it becomes evident in your parenting. There will be screaming, yelling, belittling, name-calling, maybe even the slapping, shaking, or pushing of children around.
Scary, right? And honestly? I can already see the impact of skipping my daily Bible reading in some aspects of my life now. It affects my husband, my co-workers, other drivers during my commute, and even my innocent dog.
Look at that face. You wouldn’t think that anyone could lose their patience with him, but when I allow myself to give into my temper and my pride, it all goes out the window. My pregnancy hormones are also partly to blame, but it’s mostly an issue of the heart. It’s been my biggest prayer that God would transform my heart, and it all begins with being more dedicated in reading the Bible every day and spending more time in prayer.
I want to be start building better spiritual discipline & habits for when I am raising Milo and hopefully be able to lead by example. Thank goodness for God’s grace and mercy, which are new every morning!